Alone.

Last year I felt so alone and was truly under attack by Satan. Praise God I came out of that darkness and I've even had the courage to speak about it publicly. God is so good. 

There are still times when I can't help but still feel alone. Believe me when I tell you I am no where to the point of where I was last year. Now I rely on scripture and prayer versus guys with bad intentions.

I still feel like I have no one. 

•I'm an only child.
•My family that is local are really just strangers. The rest of them live far away.
•All of my friends are married/engaged/significant other/have kids which means they have more important priorities. 
•I'm not as important to some people as I thought.

I've just got my mom. Bless her heart, it's just been my mom and I my whole life. I love her but sometimes we both need different people. 

I just need a person. 

Someone who can relate to the feeling of being surrounded by people yet all alone. Someone who knows how it feels to be on the outside looking in. Someone who knows how it feels when your heart aches from waiting. 

I feel like I'm being a little selfish. Asking for too much from someone. 

But is it really selfish to just want someone to be there for you?

Life is busy and we all have our priorities (myself included); it would be a better place if we were there for people.

Even as I type this I realize I, too, need to do better about being there for people. Even those friends with bigger priorities need people.