Tired.

I've been doing so much better with my loneliness and depression the last few months. When you stop focusing on what you DON'T have and choose to focus on what God has given you it becomes easier to be happy. 

But some days I can't help but feel tired. Not so much physically tired but emotionally.

I feel tired of doing the same thing with my life day after day.

I feel tired of not having my own children to love.

I feel tired of always helping others.

I feel tired of being a hard worker.

I feel tired of caring so much.

All these things make me who I am. I care about people deeply, I love so many children, I work hard, I care about my job, I am a servant, I love to do things for others. 

The devil is a jerk. He just can't let you be happy. He doesn't like when God is working in your life. The devil gets jealous. He wants you to be irritated. He wants you to be mad at God. So he put these thoughts in your head. These negative thoughts that bring you down. 

I hear you, devil. I'm choosing not to listen to you. 

I am blessed to have the life I do. It could be worse.

I am beyond greatful I get to love children who give me so much joy.

I am glad I want to help others. You never know how you affect someone you serve.

I am proud to be a hard worker.

I am glad I care so much because it makes me passionate. 

I wish the devil would just leave me alone. Unfortunately I know he won't. He thrives on making us feel tired, unloved, worthless, and under appreciated. 

Thankfully my moment of being tired only last a few hours. Whenever I feel tired of this life I have I need to lean on the who gave me this life and trust that He wouldn't put anything in my life that would produce these thoughts.